Yogi Yaps

 I have way too many posts to catch up on. I let one slide and then another and then it was just the snowball effect. But today I've had some REALLY BIG FEELINGS. Part of what is tough is that I have always had big feelings but it wasn't always ok to express them. Or, if I expressed them, I might not find the necessary support to help me process them. Anyway, today some of the Big Feelings involved--Karen-- who has insulted my family. Said horrible things about people I love who are closest to my heart. And for that reason, anger swept over me when I saw Karen in a space where I usually feel is a safe space for me, hosting only good energy. It was hard to just be there and just try enjoy myself like I had planned on doing. As I moved around in the space, I thought of the awful things that I've heard, which all trace back to her. When I am feeling strong emotion, of any kind, my hands shake. I felt my hands shaking terribly. My breath choppy. My face felt hot and flushed. I ...

Day 8 I anticipate this being a short post mainly because I'm tired. I did my Aham Prema in the evening tonight. Sat on my floor with my green mala beads, passing them through my fingers, listening to the sounds of the chanting to music and moving myself back and forth to the beat, slowly.  It's been the kind of day where I got up, made a plan, and have been going since then. Chores, work, meal prep, and planning have been the focus.  After Aham Prema, I felt I could use a bit more. I did a meditation to release anger. Both helped me to feel like I could let go of the emotion after feeling or to let my mind focus on the body sensations or chanting.  I don't need any extra stress right now. Life has been stressful enough. But a bad situation that has come up may result in a child getting the help they need: possibly more than one young person. That is a good thing. Sometimes things have to get messy. Sometimes there needs to be an uproar in order for problems to come to li...