Aham Prema #8

Day 8


I anticipate this being a short post mainly because I'm tired. I did my Aham Prema in the evening tonight. Sat on my floor with my green mala beads, passing them through my fingers, listening to the sounds of the chanting to music and moving myself back and forth to the beat, slowly. 


It's been the kind of day where I got up, made a plan, and have been going since then. Chores, work, meal prep, and planning have been the focus. 
After Aham Prema, I felt I could use a bit more. I did a meditation to release anger. Both helped me to feel like I could let go of the emotion after feeling or to let my mind focus on the body sensations or chanting. 


I don't need any extra stress right now. Life has been stressful enough. But a bad situation that has come up may result in a child getting the help they need: possibly more than one young person. That is a good thing. Sometimes things have to get messy. Sometimes there needs to be an uproar in order for problems to come to light that needed to be known. No one should suffer in silence and now maybe that will be remedied.  

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