Aham Prema #10

 I haven't forgotten or missed an Aham Prema day, which is good. I typically do the mantra at the same time of day, listening to the same video, moving the mala beads through my hands. My fingers crept from one to the other, counting the mantras. 


I made it to yoga today. While waiting for the class to begin, I recited a few "Aham Premas" in my head. Later, for an intention, I immediately thought of "Let Go." That's something I need to do. Let go of others' emotions, the past, the future, things I cannot control, and how others will react. At the  yoga class today, at JOY, the tea light candles and fire were on, making the room look very cozy. And it was warm, which I don't prefer for an active flow. The teacher turned down the heat, which was a good thing. I found it difficult to just "let go" during this practice, but during savasana--for a few moments, I rested my head on my head and felt that peace. Peace can be fleeting but it is exquisite. 

I am tired now, and it is evening. 

At night, it isn't so easy for me to write as in the morning, but I don't have time in the morning to start writing after doing the mantra. I have to start preparing to work.

Wholly unrelated thoughts coming to mind are as follows:  

I keep looking at passive income ideas. I'm intrigued to learn more about personal finance; it's something I have largely ignored while feeling somewhat guilty that I haven't learned more about it. I don't know much about investing but I want to know more, even if it just helps me feel more financially savvy or capable. 


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