Aham Prema 25

 So, clearly I need to catch up. I'm trying to take ten minutes before getting my work stuff set up and ready. 
 I'm not going to blog about the mantra practice, though I did it this morning. I've been in a weird mood this morning and recently, I'm having thoughts about the meaning of life and why we're here. What's the point in it all. Is it to learn and grow as people? To make mistakes and keep learning to detach from what doesn't matter in order to make room for what does? Is inner peace even possible in the world we live in right now? This world is riddled with problems with violence, war, poverty, political upheaval, the loss of democray as we know it, the devaluing of education, and the prioritization of the wrong values. It seems like, as it was in biblical times, bad people are thriving. The evildoers are out there on red carpets and having tableside wine offerings, while good people struggle to afford to live a nice life. And nothing I'm saying is new, of course but how is someone supposed to be happy? Is happiness the end goal in life? Should we expect happiness to be something that comes out of self acceptance and self actualization or is it just a fleeting feeling that comes and goes like other emotions? 
   I feel dissatisfied today. Maybe that's the word? Or it's something else I can't define. 
  I want to be better every day. I want to vibe higher, care less about other's opinions, to know how to plan my time so I can do everything I want to do and there's never enough time. Or I have time but not the energy required to do the things. I'm finding it hard to even make the time to keep up with the blogging and mantras that I intended to do every single day. I don't want to be too hard on myself. Maybe I'm taking LIFE too seriously. When my children were babies or when my niece or nephews have been small and I see them laugh, grab their feet (happy, happy babies!), I feel like I know that's matters but I still can't quite pin it down. It just feels like when I see their smile, all feels right in the world, even if there is so much wrong with the world. And if we focus on what's right, maybe that's the path to take to attain a sense of contentment or satisfaction with life. Seek the good, all the time.

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