Aham Prema Day 11

 I can't believe it's already Day 11. I feel accomplished having done the mantra 108 counts in 5-6 minutes of dedicated meditation before 8am. 

There is something about 11 days that makes me think "wow, double digits" in a way that 10 didn't--is that weird? 

I don't know. I don't really have time to write at the moment but I'm doing it anyway. It's hard to write at night when I'm tired. 

I use freewrites each week in teaching writing but I've noticed lots of students struggle to write anything at all without a prompt. I know sometimes I'm trying to write a blog entry or something else and I blank out or feel like I'm not saying anything really important. But that's not the point. The point in freewriting, like I'm doing now, is to express what comes to mind without censure or judgment. You just try to write and keep writing, until the timer sounds. I used this practice in College Writing and my college students did so much better with it, though it was years ago. Also, many of my students aren't writing for fun or writing much in general unless it's for a standardized test. 

I've thought about vlogging and writing about teaching online. I've considered other ideas as well. I don't know what direction to go in but at least for this mantra series, when I heard about it, I wanted to go for it. When I thought about blogging each day that I do the 40 day mantra, I was sure I should do it. I reached out to share my writing with others, and followed through with that action. For me, these things matter when I do have a full time job, and I am trying to incorporate yoga into my life every day. I'm striving to make it to classes in person, keep up with really low-level household maintenance cleaning. Being there for my kids: emotionally as well as physically.  So, maybe I keep doing this and anything else that I feel drawn to do and keep doing. 

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